I know I dont get on here and post things very often, notice that the post before this was in April. The reason behind this would be that I have no idea what to write about. Compared to other peoples crazy days, my day seems insignificant, so why write about it? So my life is boring. There are so many things wrong with what I have just said though, and it took me someone to tell me that I dont have a real life to make me think about this.
First, What is real life? Who is the judge of what is considered real or not. Isnt life something that is full of personal experiences. It is individual and personal, what you do, what you learn, how you have felt. No one can relate to you exactly. Think of it this way, when you experience something no one knows what you have experienced. If they had it would have to be the exact same experience, at the exact same time, with the exact same circumstances effecting you outside of this experience. And to learn the same thing, you would have to think the exact same. My point is, that never happens. I dont know if I heard this in institute or church but I thought it was really good and applys to how I have felt lately. If you were to go into a store and put all of your problems on a shelf and get rid of them, keeping in mind that when you left you had to pick up someone else problems. You would walk around the store and go back to your own problems pick them up and walk out.
Another thing that I find wrong with my statement of my life is boring and nothing happens is that it is not boring. I have heard a lot of people say that their life is boring so I know that I am not the only one in thinking like this, but it is so wrong. Put all those days together a
nd think about the month or the year or your entire life and you will see your life is not boring at all. For example today I woke up at five in the morning, went to class to make bread. Now that I am home I am on the computer. But if you look at my entire week, On my second day of bake shop never having made bread before made 1500 rolls, rolling them out by hand, for a very important catering event which happened to be the scholarship ball at uvu. That helps earn money for the school so people can have scholarships and pay for school. The rolls were eaten by people who paid $180 a plate. The next day setting up the tables for the event and seeing how an ugly basement of an event center can turn into a beautiful display of tables decorated with fall flowers. Then the next day having stayed up till 2 in the morning because we served the 600 people bussed all the tables, cleaned all the dishes, making sure everything was on time and perfect and keeping clean enough to be presented to the people. I learned how to make baguettes, and why they rise and why it is important for bread to ferment. What steam does to bread, how to make sourdough bread, what salts purpose is in bread. I cheered up a friend who has been wanting to leave school and not been able to get over her boyfriend. I have made a new best friend. Met new people, been invited to things, played with my niece. I read a scripture that has seriously changed my life, and my friends. It has helped me to get out of this silent depression that I didnt tell others about that I have been in for almost a year now. Learned some really awesome stories about my ansestors.
nd think about the month or the year or your entire life and you will see your life is not boring at all. For example today I woke up at five in the morning, went to class to make bread. Now that I am home I am on the computer. But if you look at my entire week, On my second day of bake shop never having made bread before made 1500 rolls, rolling them out by hand, for a very important catering event which happened to be the scholarship ball at uvu. That helps earn money for the school so people can have scholarships and pay for school. The rolls were eaten by people who paid $180 a plate. The next day setting up the tables for the event and seeing how an ugly basement of an event center can turn into a beautiful display of tables decorated with fall flowers. Then the next day having stayed up till 2 in the morning because we served the 600 people bussed all the tables, cleaned all the dishes, making sure everything was on time and perfect and keeping clean enough to be presented to the people. I learned how to make baguettes, and why they rise and why it is important for bread to ferment. What steam does to bread, how to make sourdough bread, what salts purpose is in bread. I cheered up a friend who has been wanting to leave school and not been able to get over her boyfriend. I have made a new best friend. Met new people, been invited to things, played with my niece. I read a scripture that has seriously changed my life, and my friends. It has helped me to get out of this silent depression that I didnt tell others about that I have been in for almost a year now. Learned some really awesome stories about my ansestors. Its all about perspective as well if you look at the basics or things in general yes they are boring, but what you learn from it, or details you fail to mention. That is what makes life exciting. So it is important to not forget all of that.
In conclusion, I have a real life. I have been through school. I have been hurt and lost my best friends that I have for years for doing nothing to them. I have dated, kissed and learned a lot about different boys. (No I am not going to put a number, I know you are curious.) I have been hurt used, and used again. I have turned into my own self instead of someone who could be pushed around or out of the way. I have moved out of the house at 18, THE YOUNGEST TO MOVE OUT IN MY FAMILY. I have lived on my own. I know what its like to live off of nothing but 5 dollars for three months because I was stupid and didnt balance my check book. Living of of nothing but Ramen noodles for a month is not fun at all. I know what it right and wrong, I have been hurt more from best friends and family then anyone, but from this I know how to deal with problems. I moved to Park City and went into a professional kitchen knowing nothing about food. I have been yelled at until crying and cutting tomatos. I have stood up for my beliefs when people were taking bets for when they could get me in bed or to have a drink or smoke. I am in debt, so I made a sacrifice of moving home and working during a very time consuming program at school so I can pay back that debt. For anyone who thinks I moved at home to use my parents money, no I know that its important to save money and get out of debt. I am grateful for Parents who love me enough to help me. For family who is there to help me and listen to me when I am having hard times. I am so happy that I have nieces and nephews to bring instant happiness in my life. They help remind me what its like to be a kid. I have learned about gaining a testimony, I have felt what its like to be in a very dark place and fill like no one is around to help. I have been a serious Car accident where it could have been a million times worse then it was, where if things went slightly different I could have died instead of just getting shock and a tiny bruise.
Our lives are our personal guides to grow and develop into what we need to be. They are special and valuable and we shouldnt think any differently of it. If its us who is thinking it, or others who tell us their opinions, we should never get discouraged. We are here for a reason, a purpose that only we can accomplish it as well as it needs to be.
I love my family so much. I love that I am here at this time and experiencing my life the way I am, because I am learning so much from it. Life doesnt start when you are a grown up, it doesnt start when you are 21, or married, or have your first kid. Yes its different from that in the past, but it starts from the beginning. Thats what Real is.
